Food is fuel for me. I have always been very athletic and food gradually morphed into fuel. I had my accident while I was jumping a horse during a show. I was in the warm up ring and I fell and even though the show went on without me, I still won the class for the season.
8 years later I can take the dog for a walk (10-15 minutes), do Pilate's 3x week and walk on the treadmill 2-3x a week for 15 minutes. I don't need that much fuel these days. Yesterday I pushed the treadmill to 17 minutes and today I am in too much pain to exercise at all.
If someone really wants to lose weight, do nothing. Be in pain. You won't get truly hungry.
Why, might you ask, did i go get my annual exam with two lb weights in my back pockets?
Because even though I eat a lot, whatever I want, I have only re-gained half the weight I lost. I am tired of my doctor thinking I'm anorexic.
She doesn't get it. She said, if your weight dips down I'll have to put you on exercise restriction? What would that mean? Going from 15 to 12 minutes on the treadmill.
The symptoms of chronic pain and anorexia look similar but they are not the same thing at all.
My doctor, whom i LOVE, doesn't get it. She said, she too is in chronic pain. But I notice her life is not restricted at all and she's on her feet all day. I want to say, "I know all pain is subjective, and I'm not trying to be a victim here, but if you had my pain as it effects me, you couldn't do what you do."But that's a no-win argument.
However, when her scale showed a 3-pound weight gain, she forgot about the anorexia stuff. She gushed about how well I looked, how wonderful I was for saving my leg, and what great muscle-tone I've developed.
I think I proved my point, at least to myself. But I basically committed a lie. Now, I'll have to wear my weights to every doctor's appointment!
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